New year, new me?

Before I start: I know. It’s been 873 years since I last did a post (and that is no exaggeration).

I was always thiiis close to writing one, but then life got in the way.

I thought I would give you guys an update of what is going on in my life, and then end this with a list of my resolutions for the new decade.

So, last time I spoke to you I was working as an Editor at this teeny tiny online magazine. I gained so many invaluable skills while working there, but unfortunately, I had to leave when term started to focus on my studies.

Since then, I had been doing various freelance writing jobs in order to fund my way through third year, you can view my articles by clicking here.

I also had my first ever article published in a real printed newspaper! In fact, I had two! They were both about the Hong Kong protests, which I hope to write about in my blog later this month.

I have done a seemingly endless amount of assignments and exams for my degree, and have been on the hunt for a graduate job. I am currently waiting to hear back from a leading national newspaper that I had an interview with, I am hoping to hear back tomorrow.

So, what is the point of this post?

Well, I was thinking so hard about what my comeback post would be, and it felt like the longer I didn’t post, the better my comeback needed to be.

And then I stopped.

And then I thought.

And then I remembered.

This is my blog. I can write about whatever the hell I want to. So I wrote this.

And now I am back and have broken the ice, I am ready to get back into writing regular posts.

With that thought in mind, I want to share with you all my 2020 resolutions.

  1. Be kinder to myself. That means being understanding of myself, patient with myself. I saw a tweet once that essentially said that you should only talk to yourself in the same way you’d talk to a friend. Would you tell a friend that they’re letting people down? Would you tell a friend that they are ___? No, so why tell yourself that?
  2. Get fit, stay sickening. Now, I have never felt the need to be super skinny. But, I found out recently that I have gained a considerable amount of weight in a year, and I am tired of it. My goal is to lose 2 dress sizes by my graduation (in July).
  3. Work even harder. I have always been a grafter, and work hard for what I want. But, if I am being totally honest, I could always have spent just a few extra hours revising or job hunting or working on my essays. If I want a good outcome for my life, I need to be more disciplined and stop glorifying being lazy as ‘self-care’!

That’s all I have so far as I don’t want to set myself too much to work at. You have to be honest, and sometimes part of honesty is admitting when you’re doing things… well… right.

I am feeling so anxious about hearing back from this job interview. I felt like it went well, but my nerves got the best of me and caused me to have a bit of verbal diarrhoea, so I am hoping that my (very lovely) interviewer recognises that it was nerves, rather than me being a loud-mouthed prick.

Do let me know down in the comments below what your new year’s resolutions are as I am always so interested to hear what people are working towards!

4. I promise to do more of what I love (which includes writing to you guys!)

Lots of love, from Evie x

Mother Nature’s Solo

The woodpecker takes the role of percussion,

the bubbling brook,

the coo of a distant bird.

The melodic sound of the wind blowing through the trees,

the delicate crunch of leaves under the hoof of a passing deer,

the gentle humming of a bumble bee.

As the sun wakes upand sings her morning song.

The world is an orchestra,

building to a crescendo,

conducted by Mother Nature.

And you are the audience,

giving it the standing ovation it deserves.

Fair Maiden

One man’s ruins is another man’s castle.

Turrets, four; guarding against an enemy unknown.

Up the tight corkscrew staircase

Uneven and crumbling,

lit only by the moon through slit windows.

There she is found.

Fair maiden, damsel in distress.

Yet, her sword tongue cuts through your shield.

Her eyes impale, with a glare that says,

“You can not save me.”

For the dragon to be slain,

lives inside the princess.

Sweet Nothings

Much a sweet nothings exchanged from lip to ear and lip to ear.

A shout into the void will receive a reply, my love, I promise you this.

The moon is our moon, the sun belongs to us.

The reason for the universe is simply for us to be.

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Go to your happy place

“Go to your happy place”

lying on a beach in a far away country

with the sun holding you as you drift to sleep,

the gentle breaking of waves singing you a lullaby again again again,

icing sugar sand is your pillow; soft and warm it relaxes you as you let it run through your fingers

but i much prefer the sharp pain of winter on my nose,

artificial warmth from a woollen blanket,

holding my favourite mug with both hands and allowing it to scald my palms,

hard rain incessantly tapping on my window, like they’re canon fodder for a machine gun

familiar shivers running through my body, rocking me like a baby

This is my happy place

Barbie as a Feminist Icon?

Barbie has never really been viewed favourably by Feminists. She represents very typical male-perspective impossibly high beauty standards for women. Her body is majorly disproportioned with loooong legs and boobs so big they MUST cause back problems. She represents decadent white America, teaching toxic beauty perceptions.

Yet, a study into Barbie’s career over the years does suggest that perhaps this plastic fantastic is owed some respect from us after all.

It turns out Barbie dolls have had around 72 careers during their time, including President of the United States. Barbie achieved where Hillary Clinton fell short, and has paved the way for other female dolls to also become President. Perhaps we will have a Bratz doll in the White House before we know it.

List of all the jobs Barbie has had over time, including salaries

As you can see by the list provided by Silver Swan Recruitment, Barbie has managed to earn over $45m. This makes her worth the same amount as Kim Kardashian, who is also a sex icon who deserves more respect for her career.

Barbie was a pilot, which is commendable since even in 2019, less than 6% of pilots are women.

Barbie was also a doctor for a short while, which seems progressive since women in movies and toys are delighted to nurses, while men get to be the actual doctors.

The point of this short article is that I hope that the toy industry is taking more of a serious thought into how they are shaping the children of tomorrow. Giving little girls a toy of a female president of the United States may seem small, but who knows how that shapes her perception of politics and her own boundaries as a woman.

Let me know in the comments below what you think of Barbie’s career path, and can she be fairly branded as a feminist icon?

Lots of love, Evie x